Cycle 4 day 9

My daughter has reminded me that I have not updated my blog. If I am being honest with myself and you it is because I have been a little blue.  Each round has been a little more difficult. I have nausea, diarrhea, mouth sores, head aches, fatigue, body aches, numbness in my legs, muscle spasms in my eyes, incredible heartburn and nothing tastes good, nothing!  My first two weeks of each cycle are spent just managing side effects. The medicines make me sleepy and unable to focus on anything.  I miss my life, I miss my creative outlets, I miss food, I miss my hair.  I know I have only two chemo cycles left but after fifteen years of medical issues and four rounds of chemo I am tired. Two more rounds of chemo are not the end. I have to have a double mastectomy and six months of herceptin therapy. I know I can do it I really do but it's hard .